Tuesday, April 10, 2007

Gut or Desire?

We have all experienced unexplainable miracles in life.

Were you talking about someone and see that precisely then you get a call?
Were you planning to break up with someone and see that he called you just then...E.S.P.N. its like electromagnetic waves which are picked up by two people connected.

I have constantly believed in making decisions based on pure gut in life. There are times when you just know it will work out...be it a job related decision or a personal one..and then there are times when you know it will not, but as you desire it...you pretend that your gut says it will.

Is there a way to know the difference between a desire and a feeling that comes from almost no where? More questions...less answers.

I guess one can safely say that if you want something constantly its a desire, but just when you wake up...a fleeting moment of knowing tells you what will happen. These instincts come from nowhere usually on the stealth mode...but are loud and clear for you to pick up.

Wednesday, March 21, 2007

The world has crashed around you...are you sure?

How many times in life have we felt the world has crashed around you?

Be it a great job which you had to leave for reasons beyond your control like a maniac of a boss or a partner you cant have because you or he did not realize the significance of what you shared or that you'll did not stand up against external factors.

But did the world really crash? Did anything untoward happen? If I reflect over the years...all that happened in the past, all the choices that i made or all the choices that were made even if i was not convinced or agreed with them have led me to be in the place that I am right now and be the person that I am. If I am able to look in the mirror and say I am contented with myself and happy the way things are now...there is no reason to even wonder that choices were incorrect. It was just me who didnt have the farsightedness to see what I was going to be.

Then the other question is...should one be averse to let things happen now based on experiences of the past? If we are, arent we affecting the person that we are going to become in the future. So if you dont get the feeling that the world has crashed around you..maybe once a year...is that a indication of the fact that you are preventing yourself from being who you really can be.

It is said pain is a happening, but suffering is a choice. We can feel pain but we need not suffer.

Monday, January 22, 2007

Fragile Relationships

I once read a great man say radiate who you are. Words only create noise, they dont help in solving any problem or misunderstanding.

Which makes me think, in friendships, relationships with friends, family, loved ones....events good or bad, words said in anger, frustration, love etc are not important. When someone says I love you or I hate you, does it hold any importance? But in a sad moment when a colleague walks up and says...you dont look so good...come lets have coffee..isnt that a moment which is divine?

If i am friends with anyone for years, does an event in our life whether good or bad have the ability to shake that relationship? If it does maybe the premise was wrong or maybe you were wrong...wrong either in action, thought or speech. But is it important?

Do we as humans have the sensitivity and the intelligence to pick up the reason behind a wrong thought, action or speech?

In every event of misunderstanding with my friends and colleagues, I have always questioned if I got it wrong, or was it me, or if someone behaves in a manner not acceptable, what was the cause of that action. Several times I have concluded its my ignorance, and several times its the others. But is ignorance a good enough reason to dislike people?

In the larger spectrum of life..a person is so much bigger than events that have happened or an action that he has performed.

If I look at the universe and compare it with earth...a tiny dust particle in it and then delhi a tiny tiny city on that dust particle and me one of the millions living in it...does an event that has happened to me or anyone hold any significance? Looking it from that angle..the significance is minuscule, yet it becomes the most significant thought in our minds.

If we have been given the ability to comprehend the vastness of the universe...we have also been given the ability to comprehend the insignificance of events and words, yet our mind clings to the smallest thought giving it more importance then required.

I do believe that humans are not their thoughts, their feelings or their body...every human is that little point in himself that doesnt change. That self thats just the same whether you were a child or a grown human being...all people that come into your life, all events that have happened...have happened because you have drawn it. That sub conscious mind that works beyond what the conscious mind can comprehend works in conjunction with the cosmic energy has drawn them in our lives. The most powerful tool that our conscious mind has is sensitivity and rationality.

Till we realise the truth we need to make ourselves so sensitive that we pick up the reason behind someones actions and words and we also need to become rational enough to realise the insignificance of it in the larger picture of the life and the universe and then drop it!

Thursday, December 14, 2006

A message

Words desert me
Silence engulfs me
I sit alone
A fleeting memory

I cant remember
I try hard
Was it a different lifetime?
Or will it be the next?

A crazy world
You were never meant to see
A beautiful life
You were never meant to be

I think you came for me
It was too soon to say
But, life was so powerful
It just took you away

I got a lot of answers
the price you had to pay
If I can for you in any lifetime
I will gladly die just any day

Monday, November 20, 2006

What should you do in life?

Last night at I saw a movie called vertical limit- Its about mountaineering and expidetions. A brother and sister who survived an accident, but their dad did not. How the two of them went apart after the tragedy, one becomes a national geographic photographer and one still is a climber and how life puts them in a similar situation and forces them to get over the past and start a beautiful present. A beautiful movie, makes me wonder what must one do in life.

I have been trekking at 18000 feet, hence I know what how impossible 26000 is. The ability to survive in 70% less oxygen and climb icy rocks seems like a super human effort. But the fact is that we are capable fo it and thats the power of the mind. The power of the human mind is something that we all just ignore, even when we have seen glimpses of it in our life time and again.

In my last trip to the Himalayas, I met a Nepali who had just moved to ladakh 5 months back. He said in his first trip, he was out of breath all the time, till his 6th...he became an expert. He ran 2 hrs ahead of all of us all the time. Another couple i met really made me wonder what i wanted in life. A brazilian couple come to India to conquer the rocky nubra valley over 5 days with 1 liter of petrol to cook, 5 liters of water to drink and backpacks, in which they were carrying all the equipment they needed in 5 days - tents, blankets, clothes...etc. It took them 6 days, the food was over on day 5..the day 6 was the toughest part, in which they lost their way...the end was just in sight...but there was no way of crossing the river to reach it...so they had to go back and climb two more mountains and then come to where we were.
The absolute tired look and the the feeling of satisfaction, I saw in their face, is something I have seen only a couple of times in my life.

I truly belive that when one is doing something, he should be the best at it or instead of relativity, he should be able to put his best in it. When one puts his absolute best in the work/ activity he does, it automatically becomes inspiring to all.

We go thorugh our lives coming to office at 9.30am and leaving at 7.00pm every day. Have we ever really felt satisfied. I have when some impossible target has been met, but the joy was not something I could share with bosses, as then it was about competition and comparisons, which only promote the rat race, which in the end of a race, whether i win or lose, i am just a rat. I could share the joy with a couple of my team mates as it was never the competitiveness that drove them.

Does competition motivate or does it prevent you from doing your best. At the first level, i think you can motivate through competition, but if you go a level deeper, i think it prevents anyone from giving their best performance. I also think by going a level deeper, you truly get out world class employees and work.

When I look back at any success in my life...one of which was climbing 18000 ft in icy terrain...the feeling of reaching the pass at top...was just about me and the mountains. When I got a 99/100 in mathematics in class X, it was just about me and my dad. Never have i compared my performance with another human, but yes I have constantly strived to prove to myself that I can be better at what i am doing.The feeling at the end of a task always tells me how have I performed.

In life i think its very important to constantly find opportunities of what you think is beyond your potential. The life I lead now, does this exist?. Which brings me back to the question....what should one do in life. Lead a life by the rules...and keep working 9-7 or .....